Talking with my mum is frustrating and useless.

How can you say that studies is a piece of cake?
The last time you studied for a test was like 30 plus years ago?
It's totally different now.
The things we learn are not as simple as what you think so.

And how can you say that i'm weird?
I'm not weird!
Different ppl have different methods of studying.
I can't study with music in the background, i can't study with noise.
I can't be disturbed when i'm studying.
That's just me. My style.

You can't say that i'm weird right.
I bet there are other students out there who are like that.

And you all dont accomodate me.
I close me door and you open it -.-
What's your problem! I just need to study in silence.

SIGH.

STUPID PTM MEETING.
CAUSE OF ALL TROUBLES.

You are always comparing me with other ppl.
Ok fine, i'm just worse than others alright?

You are not helping at all. All you do is to criticise.
Other ppl's kids are always better than your own.

I'M GOING TO PROVE YOU WRONG.

seriously, i really feel that certain things are up to the person's own will.
if you dont work hard, what's the point of good luck?

anw... sigh.

though i rant so much... she's still my mum afterall and have my interests at heart right?



yuxian has fallen sick.
hurry up and get well!
you have tons of things to settle.
no time for you to get sick.


There's biology test today. I hope it'll turn ok!
I studied for it. Haha.

There's so much things i want to do.
I want to go for the GP crash course... Learner's Lodge on 1 may and 2 may.
But there's CO again.

I'm sacrificing so many things for CO.
There's content lecture by external lecturer tml supposedly.
Not compulsory but i want to go.
and for the sake of CO i'm forsaking it.

CO CO CO.
Honestly I'm so sick and tired of it.
No one is helping me.
I feel like it's a battle on my own.

Where will all my effort go to in the end?
We will probably get silver.
And it's all because you guys dont care if we dont get gold or gwh at all.
You guys are dragging the rest of the orchestra down.
I bet you know it.
But there's no desire to improve whatsoever.

I've done all i can. I'm the good guy and the bad guy.
I've talked nicely, given prep talk, sent encouraging sms-es blahh.
I've been strict, the excos have scolded you guys before...
but you guys dont get it. you all don't get the point.

13 more days.
I wonder how much can we improve.
I wonder how are we going to achieve that Gold.
I feel like i'm slogging for the sake of nothing.

I keep telling myself.
Hang in there. It'll soon be over.

Perhaps sometimes we criticise others too much.
It's time to look at ourselves and see whether we are doing things right.

Keep growing stronger :)

ok on a random note, he sat beside me ytd! LOL. don't think too much ppl.. hahaha!